I first dreamt that grandma had gathered the whole family for a reunion dinner, I was so thrilled, even Marcus was invited. Everyone was happy but I was the only one who had realized that, that was not reality. When that thought hit me. It was when I suffered the first heartbreak; grandma is never coming back..
The second was when I'd invited a gathering for both my friends and Marcus' friends at my old house. We were having a good time catching up with our own friends when things got out of hand on his side. What I saw when I went upstairs to find him caused my second heartbreak. He was on the bed with another girl. Someone he has dated before and he was holding her hand delicately, smiling and saying something sweet to her which I couldn't hear from my distance. He looked up and saw me and he ran after me. And I said: "no. let's break up. pack your things and take her with you."
fuck...
I can't deal..
One dream sets me in where I wanted her back so badly, it's where I don't want to wake up. And the other, was the complete opposite.
Both dreams were so surreal, so difficult.
Both of them, so dear to me..
I miss you so damn much, grandma. words cannot express how much I want to have you back. I would give up so many things to have you back.
xx
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