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So after speaking to him and having him share so much about his new job, I'm feeling more at ease though I wouldn't say that all my worries have been lifted off. It will probably take a while more for me to be able to jump on his bandwagon and have as much faith as he is having for the business.

Going forward, I'll try my best to give him as much support and encouragement as I can give, in hope that I will also allow myself to be more open to changes.

I'm not one to be afraid of stepping out of my comfort zone but with the responsibilities ahead of us, I guess I'm more wary and cautious. I believe he may have his concerns as well about shifting around, but what he is showing me is that he's not afraid to chase after what he likes doing, and I find that courageous, though crazy at this point in time, hahaha. Crazy as it is, I'll still want to be his greatest supporter and biggest motivation, to be his pillar of strength and allow him room to achieve higher grounds for himself in his career; something a wife should be doing.

Change may not be a bad thing afterall, especially since I saw so much spark in him when he goes on about this new job that is in lined with what he likes doing and is good at doing, and that he had to try so hard to convince me that it is of great potential. I feel like somehow, I became the pebble that almost tripped him from moving forward to doing something that might be good, something that he thinks is much better for him.

Recently, we spent my birthday choosing a new wedding band and I posted it on Instagram with the caption that says "new bands, same vow". I made a vow and though at times while I'm pissed and impatient with him and his annoying antics, I still want to head to bed and wake up remembering that I vowed to be there for him through the good and the bad.

If I could turn back time, I probably would have tried harder to understand his decision before throwing shade at it. Skeptical as I may be as of now, I really do hope that this is something good and better for him, for us. Afterall, I'm his wife and I have a duty to ensure that my husband is happy in all aspects of his life.

xx