Yesterday, the two families came together to celebrate motherhood and although we hate them sometimes, we're thankful we were born so that M and I can have each other for the rest of our life. I'm glad that we had the gathering which made me feel like we're all a step closer than we last met.
Today, I'm just thankful that my Husband has been working so hard day and night to make sure that providing for our next phase will not be as stressful as I've always imagined. Sure it's still not going to be a piece of cake. But he keeps showing me that "it's going to be just fine".
At this stage now, I wish I could offer more (financially), have more faith and be able to boldly get pregnant and look forward to building our family. Looking at some of my peers and friends that are already having a bundle of joy to nurture and play with, I too, want to be a Mother and be given the property seat (lol, that's besides the point).
Just can't wait for all of it to fall into place and have a junior to run after. I think as much as I kept rejecting the idea, I want it more than he does but I'm just really uncertain and afraid to step out.
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