∞

I realised what you told me brutally was true. That when I get through this heartbreaking phase, (as I heal), I'll come to realise how foolish I was when I tried so hard to keep our marriage. Despite feeling foolish, I have no regrets about giving my best to try and change your mind then.

Sometimes I still think of the regrets of not being able to control my anger and allow me to do things that are out of line to you; making me wish I didn't do those thing so perhaps we wouldn't have to separate. But they come haunting me lesser now maybe once a day or maybe not anymore. I don't keep track anymore.

You said that you still want a future and have kids; but it's not with me. You don't want me to be the Mother of your child. That was the harshest thing I've ever heard from you and I guess that it was what poisoned me to stop bugging you. I hope your dream may be fulfilled like you'd better preferred in future.

For now, I have better things to focus on. Going into details of my business venture and meeting new people, and just being happy :)

xx